A million thoughts and a zillion doubts fabricated my mind during childhood. Genuine, genius and silly doubts co-existed. Lack of intellect gave birth to half-baked ones while complex thoughts to doubts of complex order.

Unanswered questions lead to restlessness. A chain of queries turned it into a consuming affair. Looking back, I smirk at the way thoughts manufactured doubts. My plate was full of complex queries and equally silly ones. Am using these three terms interchangeably at some places.

Once, during my childhood, after much self-debate I came to a conclusion that all dogs had same faces and features. Every time I looked into a dog's face, only one question popped up ~ do they hold the same sentiments towards us ? Meaning do they see all humans with same faces too then ? Self counter. Now when I look at Chinkus, a similar question replays. No, this is not to belittle their race as such.... but I feel they are tough to distinguish. Later I wonder if its equally tough for them to differentiate from a group of Indians.

In another instance, I use to look at objects, stop and take my eyes off them. Then question myself if they put still without making faces or giggling at me, for I always felt everything around was a mere pretention.

So how do these examples fit into the theme of this post you may question. I am not exactly sure either. May be its a demo of how our minds work as a kiddu.

Childish stuff ;) . Everything is more or less the same. I still doubt, question and get restless. But on topics a 'grown up' ponders over. Not on what a dog thinks, a mosquito feels or emotions of some lame object towards you and me. Ages have gone by and now I extend the same doubt theory towards people around me. I feel everyone is pretentious.

Doubts, questions or queries of childhood are sweet and evoke laughter and love. That of an old mind can prove dangerous - breaking ties and severing those threads of belief.

In whatever magnitude doubts strike an old mind, they always possess a strong potential of damaging the strongest of foundations called trust and faith.